So after 4 months of inactivity, this is alive again. Finally awake from hibernation. I just wish I could hibernate, too. Acad load has been weighing on me lately. Hay.
Kahit nakakapagod, there are many reasons to be happy like:
1. co-Praxians Amme and Kei won in the student council elections. USC Councilor na si Amme. At si Kei ay Socio Dept Rep na. Congrats!
2. I think okay naman ako sa 188. Tingin ko lang naman. Haha
3. Eheads concert on the 7th!
4. :)
Sa isang taong malabo: di ko alam kung may nagawa ako, pero pinipilit kong magreach out. Akala ko okay na tayo. Di ko alam kung anong nangyari, at ang mga nangyayari. I can only speculate, nothing more. Ayaw mong magkwento sa'kin for reasons outside of my knowledge. Siguro kasi di mo na ako kailangan, kasi may mga bago ka nang kaibigan. Okay, get ko naman, sila ang nandoon nung nangyari ang unspeakable-but-known event nung isang araw na I can only speculate about. Siguro kasi busy ako sa ibang bagay na di na tayo nagkakausap. Okay, kasalanan ko, sorry. Pero nagrireach out ako, kaso parang di ka interesadong magreach back. Okay. Marami na naman sila dyan ngayon. My absence (enforced or incidental) wouldn't really make a difference. Nanghihinayang lang ako sa pinagsamahan natin. Di ko madedeny na nagbago ka, feeling ko di na kita kilala. Get ko naman, sige, ako rin naman nagbago. Siguro kasi dumating siya at sila. Incidental lang naman na sila ang nandoon. Pero ano? Sila na lang naman ang mahalaga sa'yo. A year's worth of friendship down the drain. Wala, kagaya ka lang ng mga nauna sa'yo: nawawala pag may dumating nang bago. Palagi na lang akong biktima ng ganito. Okay, bitter ako. Fine. Sana lang di ka malabo. Or actually, malinaw naman e, dinidismiss mo na ako. Fine.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, October 31, 2008
A Merry Hallow's Eve to All
I was a ghost. Literally. The AcadsComm was in an online conference this afternoon, and everything was going well, when suddenly they couldn't read my messages! I was literally a ghost, being able to read their posts but mine are invisible to them. This happened thrice, I think, which prolonged our meeting. But oh well, our committee had done a great job brainstorming. I love them. <3
But now, I am bored. For the nth time this sembreak, I am bored.
Okay, 3 days to go before I go back to school! Yey.
And also, I already got all my needed subjects in CRS. Even though I hate the idea of having classes until 5:30 in the afternoon thrice a week, at least I now have all my needed subjects. Hurray for me! Thank you, CRS. For the first time, I love you. Haha
And also, yes, 12 days to go. :)
And yes, Happy Halloween to all! :D
But now, I am bored. For the nth time this sembreak, I am bored.
Okay, 3 days to go before I go back to school! Yey.
And also, I already got all my needed subjects in CRS. Even though I hate the idea of having classes until 5:30 in the afternoon thrice a week, at least I now have all my needed subjects. Hurray for me! Thank you, CRS. For the first time, I love you. Haha
And also, yes, 12 days to go. :)
And yes, Happy Halloween to all! :D
Sunday, October 26, 2008
A Dose of Reality
Sometimes, I want to give this trashy blog a dose of social relevance instead of being a wastebin of my so-called life, even being outdated by my trashy consistency about things. I just can't seem to get a grip of myself, sometimes.
So for a change, I would like to talk about some important stuff that I have observed lately and would like to rant about. Okay, this would still be a rant, I am warning you now, dear reader, but would be about some of the more relevant things.
Yesterday, I went to mass with my high school friends. Yes, I went to mass, after about a month of being a non-practicing Catholic girl. Maybe it is my sociologically open mind that had obstructed my once-sponge-like mind about my religion's teachings, but I am not really sorry or anything about it. I would like to think that ever since I had been awakened to Louis Althusser's concept of the Ideological State Apparatus (or ISA), I cannot look at the belief system I grew up with the same way again.
Okay, so the Gospel was about the Great Commandment, which is, as I have learned from my Catholic school background is "Love God above all and love your neighbors as you love yourself." So okay, I accept that. But the sermon that followed really agitated me that I needed to rant about it to someone while it is ongoing. Okay, Father was talking about charity, dignity, and graciousness. But the sermon was inconsistent and contradictory. Okay, so we must love our neighbors as we love ourselves. And dear Father went on talking about how "undignified" sidewalk vendors are, taking government-owned spots on the highways, annoying the passerbys, driving the visitors (meaning tourists, or if I knew better, foreign or wealthy ones) away. Come on, as we must love our neighbor as we love yourself, you do not tell people that they are undignified unless you can give an alternative way of giving them dignity. It's not like those "undignified" people has enough capital to afford a legal stand or something. If they have to be displaced, give them alternatives. Or better yet, give them formal jobs. If you can love them, Father, as much as you love yourself, you must not go talking about how "undignified" they are. Instead, go figure how they can be helped. Charity, as has been mentioned by dear Father, enters here. Well, I have grown in a Catholic school where charity is highly valued, as it is the highest form of love. But hey, Father, was telling us that those beggars should not accept money or any form of assistance in the context that they should be nationalistic. Not to be self-sustaining, but to be nationalistic! Come on, I could have believed and agreed with him that the beggars should not depend on the help that they can derive from people as they pass by if he said that they need to work hard and all that, but to be nationalistic? When our own State is weak and cannot provide for the needs of its citizens? It is hard to be nationalistic when your own State is foreign-oriented, you know. And see, as Father has mentioned, those "undignified" people are scaring "visitors" away. And as I have defined if I knew better, those visitors could very well be foreigners and/or wealthy tourists, giving the economy a lift with their money. Okay, capitalism on the roll. Charity in the context of capitalism.
I was just so annoyed with the sermon that I think my rant above is incoherent itself, but hey, I am very much agitated now, just remembering what I heard yesterday. It saddens me that a lot of Catholics don't see this leanings of our leaders. And I don't want to blame the Scriptures because it is the interpretations which cause the actual rifts and departures. But really, if more of the Church leaders look at the social situation now the same way, I am very much thankful to Louis Althusser for his utter brilliance.
PS. It has never been my habit to proofread my entries, so please forgive my incoherence, grammatical errors, and redundancy.
So for a change, I would like to talk about some important stuff that I have observed lately and would like to rant about. Okay, this would still be a rant, I am warning you now, dear reader, but would be about some of the more relevant things.
Yesterday, I went to mass with my high school friends. Yes, I went to mass, after about a month of being a non-practicing Catholic girl. Maybe it is my sociologically open mind that had obstructed my once-sponge-like mind about my religion's teachings, but I am not really sorry or anything about it. I would like to think that ever since I had been awakened to Louis Althusser's concept of the Ideological State Apparatus (or ISA), I cannot look at the belief system I grew up with the same way again.
Okay, so the Gospel was about the Great Commandment, which is, as I have learned from my Catholic school background is "Love God above all and love your neighbors as you love yourself." So okay, I accept that. But the sermon that followed really agitated me that I needed to rant about it to someone while it is ongoing. Okay, Father was talking about charity, dignity, and graciousness. But the sermon was inconsistent and contradictory. Okay, so we must love our neighbors as we love ourselves. And dear Father went on talking about how "undignified" sidewalk vendors are, taking government-owned spots on the highways, annoying the passerbys, driving the visitors (meaning tourists, or if I knew better, foreign or wealthy ones) away. Come on, as we must love our neighbor as we love yourself, you do not tell people that they are undignified unless you can give an alternative way of giving them dignity. It's not like those "undignified" people has enough capital to afford a legal stand or something. If they have to be displaced, give them alternatives. Or better yet, give them formal jobs. If you can love them, Father, as much as you love yourself, you must not go talking about how "undignified" they are. Instead, go figure how they can be helped. Charity, as has been mentioned by dear Father, enters here. Well, I have grown in a Catholic school where charity is highly valued, as it is the highest form of love. But hey, Father, was telling us that those beggars should not accept money or any form of assistance in the context that they should be nationalistic. Not to be self-sustaining, but to be nationalistic! Come on, I could have believed and agreed with him that the beggars should not depend on the help that they can derive from people as they pass by if he said that they need to work hard and all that, but to be nationalistic? When our own State is weak and cannot provide for the needs of its citizens? It is hard to be nationalistic when your own State is foreign-oriented, you know. And see, as Father has mentioned, those "undignified" people are scaring "visitors" away. And as I have defined if I knew better, those visitors could very well be foreigners and/or wealthy tourists, giving the economy a lift with their money. Okay, capitalism on the roll. Charity in the context of capitalism.
I was just so annoyed with the sermon that I think my rant above is incoherent itself, but hey, I am very much agitated now, just remembering what I heard yesterday. It saddens me that a lot of Catholics don't see this leanings of our leaders. And I don't want to blame the Scriptures because it is the interpretations which cause the actual rifts and departures. But really, if more of the Church leaders look at the social situation now the same way, I am very much thankful to Louis Althusser for his utter brilliance.
PS. It has never been my habit to proofread my entries, so please forgive my incoherence, grammatical errors, and redundancy.
5 Down, 7 to Go!
A few quotes from Zadie Smith's White Teeth. I have started reading this last summer, but I'm yet to finish it.
I have just finished reading Gossip Girl #7: Nobody Does It Better (Cecily von Ziegesar). I am now in the venture of finishing White Teeth. And then I'll get on with reading Fight Club (Chuck Palahniuk) which I borrowed from Master Renchantan and I promised to return early next sem, in one of our classes together.
“… you’ll find things need folds, they need to overlap, otherwise life would be like a broadsheet: flapping in the wind and down the street so you lose the important sections.”
“You must live with the full knowledge that your actions will remain. We are creatures of consequence, Archibald.”
“One sometimes forgets the significance of one’s teeth. We’re not like the lower animals – teeth replaced regularly and all that – we’re of the mammals, you see. And mammals only get two chances, with teeth. More sugar?”
I have just finished reading Gossip Girl #7: Nobody Does It Better (Cecily von Ziegesar). I am now in the venture of finishing White Teeth. And then I'll get on with reading Fight Club (Chuck Palahniuk) which I borrowed from Master Renchantan and I promised to return early next sem, in one of our classes together.
Okay, I'm a bum.
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IMY.
Friday, October 24, 2008
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